Pregnant & single

Hi guys ! Hopefully you are doing fine 🙂

Today, I decided to announce you a big news which is going to change my whole life ! I’m going to be a mum in few months !!!! I had to tell you this event because I launched this blog since I was in high school and today I’m 24 and I’m pregnant since 25 weeks now. Fiouuu… The time passed so fast, right ? It was obvious to talk about my little thing and more… The subject is going to be sensitive for you but I will talk about it and I will tell you my story…

First of all, I have never imagined that one day I could be a (young) mum. Not because I didn’t want to have kids but I’ve never think about the idea to have a baby one day because I used to live for the day.

After my studies, I wanted to move Paris for somewhere I could find a job like South Korea, a nice country that I would love to visit. I didn’t know where exactly but I wanted to leave for a new adventure far from Paris. But the day has arrived, I got pregnant and it was obvious (for everyone) that I have to abort… There is no way that I could keep the baby.

Why ?

• It’s not the good time because I don’t have a stable situation
• I’m a vagabond who lives in their parent’s home
• I don’t have a structure life like everyone, I’m single and it’s not possible for the kid to grow up without the dad who doesn’t live with us ( there is an another reason which is really complicated but I will keep it for me)
• I’m young and I have time to make a baby

Il y a donc toutes les raisons valables qui me poussent à avorter… Surtout que l’on essayait de me convaincre que je pouvais toujours attendre de rencontrer le prince charmant et d’avoir une bonne situation pour concevoir un bébé ! Vous connaissez le blablabla, non? J’ai bien compris, c’est pas le bon moment pour concevoir un enfant et je peux toujours attendre.

So, there are so much good reasons that I couldn’t keep the baby… Some people was trying to convince me that I can always wait the right time, to find the right guy and to have a good financial situation to have a baby. You know the story, right ? I understand, it’s not the good time to have a baby and I can still wait because I’m young.

However, my heart didn’t want to listen the reason. When I new that I was pregnant, I already project myself with the kid, I felt like that he will bring me good things in my life and I mostly felt love that a mum can felt for his kid. Like I need him more than he needs me. I had a really strong feeling that I couldn’t imagine losing him. I disagreed with the all reasons which pushed to abort ! Why should I follow everyone ? The system where we live ? Why should I wait the right time to have a baby?

There is no right time. I didn’t decided, it happened…

But ok, I also took the time to think about it to take the right decision. I talked a lot about my case to singles mums or some people who grew up without dad… Sometimes it was really hard to hear some stories but it was encouraging and no matter what people were saying, I was focus on my idea, I wanted to keep the baby and I think I’m the only one who can make the right decision. This is life after all.

People are going to judge me but it’s my due to live and create my own life experience…

I’m still young, I have the possibilities to raise the baby in good conditions. I learnt a lot about life and it was enough to convince myself that I can handle it and I didn’t a badly situation compared to others countries in the world. There are so much poor countries where mums can raise kids with barely nothing and me as french girl who lives in France, why I couldn’t make it too. The only thing that I will sacrifie, it’s my backpack world tour in solo but whatever, it’s not going to be easy but I least I can still travel with my kid. Mostly, I think travelling is one of the best education I can offer for my kid. (But we are not here yet ^^)

So after overthinking the situation, I didn’t want to abort. I followed my heart than the reason with a big support of my lovely mummy. My decision was taken and I decided finally to keep the baby. No more question about the abortion !

The first 3 months have passed, I could think about my future life with my little baby and to announce the good new to my closest friends. (YOUhouuu !)

How is going my pregnancy ?

Before to be pregnant, I wasn’t interested by the pregnancy but I think it’s an amazing, crazy and magic experience that I live right now. It’s so awesome to have the possibility to create life and to see how my belly grow day by day. I’ve never felt alive than ever since I’m pregnant. I don’t even believe on my pregnancy, this is something magic that a lot of mum can understand that. (Boys, that’s too bad that you can’t live this moment in your life, you don’t know what you are missing). Today, my baby moved a lot and his head is already down :).  You got it, I’m waiting a little boy 🙂 So if you have names ideas, dont hesitate to share it.

The pregnancy is going pretty well and I’m waiting this baby for february with a lot of patience. I’m not to excited yet because I want to think about myself for the only last months that I have 🙂 But to be honest, I’m a little bit scared because it’s going to be a new and unknown experience which will bring me to be strong. I can’t wait to discover myself as a futur mum. I don’t know what will happen to me but I’m going to stay positive and to keep my happy life no matter what. (I have to)

So here was the story ! It was a pleasure for me to share that big event which is going to change my whole life and hopefully this article will give some support and hope for girls who are in my situation. I know that it’s not easy sometimes but we can make it, right ? The abortion is not an easy subject but I think it’s important for all of us to talk about it mostly I think a lot of us have lived this experience.

So guys, it’s really important to be support by who will bring you to the top and to surpass you. Anything can discourage if you believe in it !

Photo credit : Aliénor Rospars

Photo prise à l’hôtel Gustave et je porte un body de chez Asos.